As you may have guessed, I’m back dabbling in the blogosphere. And, as many of you have so kindly pointed out already, it’s been a very, very long time. Believe it or not, I didn’t intend to stop and even during my hiatus I regularly thought about this blog and what I was doing. But the funny thing is, if you’re not inspired and you don’t find the time to write, then you don’t.
I’m on my way back to finding inspiration. Am I there yet? I’m not sure. But I do know that I am going to make an effort to spend more time writing, because it’s therapeutic for me, and it’s something I haven’t taken time for at all recently.
Without going into gory details right now, I suppose it would be important for all of you to know that this renaissance will be a gradual one. As I mentioned yesterday, coming back to Crossfit after even a few weeks off is like reentry into the atmosphere. It’s painful and it hurts and it’s just a big change. Well, it’s kind of the same when you get back into making yourself vulnerable online. Though, if I think about it, my entire life for the past year has been a series of reentries, if you will, which was part of the reason the hiatus occurred in the first place. Major life changes, ya know? The last time I published here (before yesterday) was in February. Around that time, I met a boy and fell in love. It was a long-distance relationship, so all of my free time was sucked up. During the week I worked and did school, on the weekends we saw each other. That’s all I had time for. It was a constant struggle of learning how to make a healthy lifestyle work when I was constantly living between two cities.
Then a few months ago, we moved in together. Another big change! Loverboy got a job near me, and then I found myself navigating a no-longer-long-distance relationship, living with another person, and balancing a relationship, school, work, exercise, etc., etc., etc. A challenge indeed! A challenge I’m still working through!
Good news is, I’m still here. But I’m not the same person, certainly, and my goals and my lifestyle have changed. With that, this blog is changing.
For one, I’m not going to preach about nutrition. At least for now. If the last year or so has taught me anything, it’s that sometimes I think I know what I’m talking about, but I really don’t. I’m focusing on whole foods and healthy foods, but I’m no longer shoving anything down anyone’s throats. If I post a recipe, know it will be delicious and nutritious, and something that perhaps the vegetable hater will enjoy (Loverboy hates veg, so this is a “fun” challenge).
Also, there will be considerably less photos, at least for now. I now go to a Crossfit that does not regularly take photos, and I really like to focus on exercising over taking gym selfies, so you’ll just have to take my word for whatever over a photo. Sorry, guys!
Another thing, maybe? A new focus? A focus on being happy and healthy and knowing that these positive thoughts and words will ultimately fuel my external success and outcomes. A lot of people have also asked me where I am on my weight loss journey. Suffice it to say, I have not yet reached my 100# mark. In fact, with all the little reentries over the year, the scale tipped a little in the other direction. My emphasis is not going to be on the number of pounds being lost, but other nonscale victories as well as positive self-talk. Because that’s what I need right now.
So yes, I’m back, but in a slightly different capacity.
I hope that you can grow with me now, and bathe yourself in a positive, sparkly light, and to embark on this continuing journey, seeking happiness and health!